Balance in a Tug-of-War World
Pam Allen
Wow...what to write about today.....
My mind is a blur with different things but the one thing that keeps coming back to me is balance and the tug-of-war that comes along with it. Since I'm an "all or nothing" individual I find this concept very hard to grasp.
Oh yeah, and did I mention I'm a people pleaser?
The combination of those two things alone can keep you busy for an entire lifetime without so much as a breath. Feeling like you have to be everybody's everything can sometimes lead you to be nobody's anything.
Soooo...what to do?
Time to get back to basics SO God made a way for me to take a break from everything for a few months.
It was great because I got to spend alot of time in the car just driving...which is one of my favorite things to do. I got to spend time with my oldest son, Michael, while my husband and extended family held down the fort looking after my younger son, Zachary.
Being away from them so much made me miss them and appreciate them more.
The best thing that came out of this little break was that I got to spend some alone time with my Creator and do you know what I realized? I've been "too busy being busy" and running full speed ahead and not taking enough time to just sit and be quiet so He can speak.
It's funny how we have trouble hearing Him through the noise of life isn't it? We don't take the time to refuel and wonder why we have lost our effectiveness.
I think this was happening to me...not intentionally but happening nonetheless.
Don't get me wrong, I still feel called to ministry and will continue to do the things that are pleasing to Him but I'm giving Him full reign on how that happens.
God is pointing me to new priorities in my life...they are the ones that have always been there..I've just chosen to give them their rightful place. God, husband, children, ministry and exactly in that order.
I thank Him for that...
